It's Friday folks and I am damn happy for it. Not because I want wish my life away, each moment IS a gift that is for certain. However, this week has been an emotional, physical and mental rollercoaster that I'll gladly be happy to move on from. What did I learn? Let's see, shall we:
a) Focusing on breathe outside of meditation is a fantastic stress reliever AND way to center myself. This must be done on a more regular basis, or I just cry for no reason and crying seems to upset the men for some reason.
b) I love yard work! It has essentially become my new vice and I have to tell you, this project has been rewarding in ways I couldn't have imagined. A sanctuary of my own choosing, a sacred spot on the planet in which I can beautify and support life? I think about my yard quite a lot now and it feels really good to have something, not work related, not family related, no related to ANYTHING except loving the earth and myself in the process, wow...what a deal! Plus, Kristen loves this subject so I like to see her get so excited about the whole thing. She's quite cute with it.
c) Max and I can't be friends every day. As much as I'd like for it to be different, it's just the way things are right now. It's his JOB to break away from me and it's my job to stay consistent with the rules/boundaries, whether he likes them or not. It's not easy being such a sensitive person though, I have to tell you that. I don't like feeling like my kid hates me, I don't like it when there is so much tension in our house and I sure don't like seeing him be all over the place like he is. I can't fix everything for him, I've done well in many ways with him and he is loved and that is the bottom line of it all.
d) I really miss eating fish, specifically sushi. It is the ONLY protein I've craved regularly for some time now. I have no desire to eat any other animal product, it mostly just makes me sick anyway, but fish...ooooh, I LOVE fish. I love Mahi Mahi, Ahi Tuna, Snapper, Salmon, Shell Fish of all kinds, and I adore unagi. ADORE IT! I may have to indulge myself a little in some good, fresh fish.
Peace out ya'll! Happy Mothers Day and Happy Friday!
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