Pro's & Con's Of Heartbreak & Sadness

In no particular order...

Con's

• Probability of bursting into tears at random moments increases 10 fold, not so good for work purposes.
• Lack of mental clarity, total distraction.
• Listening to the radio reinforces a range of emotions (I heard this song today and totally lost it....
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• Lack of energy, lethargic.
• Feeling pathetic and feeling like everyone else feels like I am pathetic too.
• The weather isn't cooperating with my mood (should be dark, raining, cloudy and dreary.)
• Sleeping is all I want to do, but actually doing it is harder than it should be.
• Chance is everyone in my life, and in reality...he is. My home, my work, my car, my spirit.
• Just getting through the day is my only goal at the moment, I can't think of much else.
• I know this is going to go on for a long time, months probably....I could do without that.
• I don't feel like talking to anyone and being alone is my preferred state at the moment, this isn't like me but I am honoring it.
• I am just sad...it's not fun, being depressed is pretty crappy.
  
  Pro's
  
• I become largely inspired and creative during these periods of depression.
• Eating doesn't seem terribly important at the moment.
• When the sadness passes and my sunshine returns, I will be SO much happier for it.
• I am overcome at the outpouring of support by my friends and family, everyone has been so kind and sweet and not hating on either of us, that's the best part. We've reached a point in life where no one HAS to hate anyone, this is just the way it is and it's sad and we deal with it.
• Max has been THE sweetest baby boy on the planet, he knows I'm not a happy kiddo at the moment and sends me funny emails and hugs me a lot. Huh, who knew?
• Changes of this nature bring about new (and potential exciting as one of my favorite people on the planet pointed out) possibilities for growth and life.
• Learning through this process will be good for me, I will be reminded of my strength and my purpose...perhaps I will even be inspired to seek my passions as I've been longing to do for so long.