We've all heard it..."If you can't say something nice, then don't say anything at all." Granted, there are times when a good confrontation is warranted and it is important to roll out the issues on the table, but in certain circumstances, it does nothing but hurt the other person. And what purpose does that serve? Last night, I was given a good dose of exactly what my former amour thinks of me and I suspect today he is wondering why he said those things. Thankfully, I was able to maintain my composure and fairly gracefully indicated that unless he wishes to sour this fairly decent repoire between us during this difficult time, it might be wise to keep bitter comments to ones-self. I have refrained from doing so, I will expect him to do so. However, I am totally shocked at the degree to which I have been underestimated. Truly. And hurt. I never realized I was such a disappointment.
Otherwise, my weekend generally sucked. I was/am sick, spent most of Saturday coughing, sneezing and being miserable. I didn't get to one single social event this weekend that I'd had planned and missed P's visit on Sunday which really was a bummer as I wanted to meet her boys very much. Plus, I just need girl time in general. I missed my hike date w/ Sandy and B's going away party. I didn't get to talk to my GramE on her birthday and my house is in total disarray.
Work should be kicking my ass for the next several weeks and I have a fantastic opportunity to actually go to Mexico after I thought I wasn't going to be able to, but it's still all very complex and confusing b/c Chance has no real clue about what he's doing and when he's doing it I can no longer put my life on hold while he figures out what he wants, that's for sure. I have to find a way to go, it's a good opportunity...one I may not come across again and Crystal and Dane want to make this happen for me b/c they love me and want me there....who can say no to that? I love them, we have 5+ years of history and deep friendship between us....
back to work, life will be nutty these next few weeks. Family: Please be patient with me. Friends: The same.
love you all
xo,
S
3 comments:
You poor thing. Of course I want you to go to Mexico, but not if it's going to cause even more stress on an already maxed out mango. :-(
You've got a lot on your plate right now, least of which includes me or any other buddies. I support you in whatever you need to do - I promise! No more pressure from me to go to the wedding.
Oh I know, it's not pressure...it's just feeling like I want to make it happen and I've got lots of things to balance to do so.
Like I said in email, the wind will guide me and trust that....
Ah, my dear - I know how overwhelming and damaging stress can be.
No worries on the weekend - everything happens like it is supposed to; which is a mantra I'll be repeating throughout the day.
I hope you feel better soon, chica.
I would have liked to have seen you too, but stuff happens, yo!
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