Long Nights, Longer Days

I went to the hospital this morning. Noone panic please, I was the one that panicked and while others may think I am silly, I don't care. I had a moment of fear and decided to act on it. So be it.

My neck has been in severe pain for over a week, Monday night I began having blinding flashes of lights in my eyes that obscured my vision for several minutes a time. Last night, I hardly slept at all...I've been grinning and baring it for almost 3 days. This morning, woke up and the entire right side of my face was completely numb...and so was my right arm. I totally freaked. Went to the ER. These are all signs of a number of rather scary health situations, no way in hell I'm going to risk it out of ego.

So, I was poked, prodded and tested. CT scan showed no sign of rupture blood cells or any blood clots, that's a good start. Blood work came out great, other than pretty low on potasium and something else that they then allieviated with giant horse pills that got stuck in my throat but, I got them down.

MRI on Friday should show any pending lurking issues.

They wanted to do a spinal tap for fear of possible menengitis. I told them to stick it. No freaking way is someone poking my spine again (epidural during birth = very bad experience for Sarah) and no need to if they aren't 100% sure. I promised the doc if I suddenly began having high fever and flu symptoms in addition to this other crap, I'd come and they could poke me all they wanted. She seemed pleased about this and stopped harassing me. That's good, cuz I'd had it with her by that point.

The staff at this hospital are so kind and gentle, really...it's a field I have a great admiration for. How do they get up every day and watch people suffer and still do it with a smile and a warm heart? A life form from another plant might find these field workers to be quite cold, I'd contest it is exactly the opposite. Though, I've known my fair share of Nurse Ratchets in my life time, that is generally not the case. Bless these men and women, who work so hard to make others comfortable and safe. Bless you.

I was promptly kicked out of my room for 2 men who'd injected a bad does of heroin. Oh my goddess, not something I wish to witness again. Those poor men. It makes me carefully consider how lucky I am that I never got hooked on the stuff, everyone was doing it in San Francisco when I lived there, a guardian soul definately had it's sights on me during that time. Thank you for never getting me in the mindset that I'd like poke myself to get rid of the pain! yuck.

I am home, I'm really tired though and keep wondering if I over reacted. But I also keep telling myself that sometimes, a girl has to take care of herself. My genetic biology is made up of a plethera dynamic and rather odd possible health issues that I may face in life, I have to take my health seriously and cannot just dismiss a headache/neckache like this when I know full well it could've been.

By the way, doc thinks it is probably just a severe migraine which traveled down my spine and is prob causing the pain in my neck. They gave me some wicked pain relievers, so I feel NOTHING at the moment and am frankly pretty shocked I am coherant enough to type.

I am going to look into acupuncture and massage, it's time and my body has been screaming at me to care for it better as of late....if not me, who will?

Peace ya'll, go to bed tonight and give thanks for the millions upon millions of health care providers in the world that give so much to us, so thanklessly. Bless you nurse who poked that IV in me today and gave me hell about being dehydrated, bless you doc who wanted to poke my spine, but also still wanted to make sure I didn't burst some thing in my head. Bless you all!