Well, Mother Nature is surely pushing us into saying goodbye to summer whether we like it or not. I like that about her, crafty old crone…she’s probably had just about enough of our crap for one millennium and is keeping us on our toes. A few benefits to cooler, wetter weather:

- You have an excellent excuse to snuggle the ones you love under a blanket with a good book, movie or your favorite episode of whatever tv show catches your fancy.
- Sweaters, hoodies, scarves and hiking boots.
- Leaves turn and begin to fall, which if you are lucky enough to live by Aspen tree’s is an even more exciting event.
- Grilled cheese and soup for dinner.
- Cool nights that translate into cool mornings with squeeashy puppies under the covers. Man I loves me that dog!

If it does actually snow tonight, I’m thinking I’ll probably need to get the camera out and throw Bailey out in it and start snapping photo’s because if I know that doggeh, it’ll be a photo worthy event.

My mood is improving, I still have really shitty days and that’s just the way it is. We’ll see what the wonders of modern medicine can do for me. So far, I have the WORST cotton mouth ever and I’m a little drowsy, well and I guess I just feel different. So far, in a good, positive way. I am definitely able to focus more at work which is nice (if you don’t count this blogg entry in the middle of my work day LOL) and I feel more able to think things through instead of just immediately reacting.

In news completely unrelated to little old self absorbed me: Crystal is here! TA DAAAAA! Yay. This makes me a very very happy tree fruit. I can’t believe that now, I can drive 30 minutes and there she is! Their new house is just lovely and Crystal is taking a lot of time to set up her nest so that it represents her, Dane and their marriage. Which is quite a lovely thing in and of itself. I’m still REALLY jealous about the chopper thingy, WANT!

P is talking about a visit, I hope that can happy for her. Ok, I want her to come for me more then anything…but I know how this stuff can go. I love my Spicy Wasabi P, especially when she has her Vulcan ears on cuz she’s at her spiciest then. Secretly, I’m hatching a plan to move P and her kiddo out here to so that I’d be surrounded by all my girls and then I’d be in femme fatale heaven!

Seriously, when I think of the women in my life it’s like something you’d see in a sit com or a modern day Charlie’s Angels. That would be scary, all of us as Charlie’s Angels? I’d pity the poor man that got in our way. I get to the cute blonde seductress who uses her seemingly innocent charm to lure them in and then poison them. BUWAAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Take that beeetches.

Whoa…what would happen if I managed to get my cousins and Aunties and GramE & Grandpa John here too? Holy crap….NOW I’m thinking huge I know. Oh well, I never said I wasn’t totally selfish. I mean really, some days I wonder how the world even continues to function when I go to sleep at night.

Life kind of plugs along, I’m still getting through the days one at a time and that’s ok. I don’t make a lot of plans or commit to much more then I can do in the foreseeable future. I am enjoying doing things on my own terms and in my own space. My plans for classes and things are on hold for about another month or so and then I can start looking at what interests me. Right now I’m thinking of a Spanish class, a creative writing class (en espanol? No beuno!), an art class of some kind or belly dancing. Oh and puppy training classes with the Mogwai. She’s so smart, it’s a shame not to put all that brilliance to good use.

I speak with Max on Wednesdays and we talk often. I’ll let you know how tomorrow’s talk goes. Last weeks wasn’t so great, he’s being pretty jerky to me and sounds more like his father then I can stomach. But such is the reality of the situation. I still can’t help but feel this isn’t permanent, perhaps that’s my instinct talking to me or maybe I’m just in denial. Who knows.

Peace out for now
Xo