Blogg

Clearly my blogg has been a casualty of these recent months of transition. It saddens me to admit that I really have had no interest in writing lately, nor have I had the energy to sit down and hash through all the details as of late, truly it’s just exhausting to think about. There is a definite shift in what I’d prefer to share, how and when to do that, etc…..plus, Facebook has kind of wormed it’s way into my life so my blogg ends up getting ignored while Facebook gets all the love these days. Poor blogg.

So, that said, I am at place of indecision about what to do with my blogg because it’s something I’ve invested a lot of energy and time into and I can’t really see me just scrapping it. No, that definitely cannot happen. It’s been a tool of both documentation and communication and a useful one at that. I like going back and reading through previous entries, I like the process of journaling where I’m at and what I am learning about, I like it all…it’s just that lately I’ve been depressed and haven’t felt like doing much of anything other then what is absolutely required of me. You know how that goes…this stretch has lasted several months, but I’m now seeing that I must continue to explore that which is positive, enlightening, uplifting and encouraging. Writing are all of those things and more. Now it’s a matter of trying to decide where to go with it next, which one could easily argue is what my whole life is about at the moment. There is always the possibility that I may go more private with it, which I think is a very plausible option…we’ll see. That or I may have to reconsider some of my own personal blogging policies thus far….

For now, I think I will just make some random notes and see where that takes us….

- I am feeling some irritation today. A little consumed by others, which is mostly my own fault for allowing it to go on in the first place. Those old boundary issues creeping up on me again, as usual.

- Looking forward to going home tonight and playing w/ my Bailey Boo Boo. She nommed my pillow again this morning and made me laugh. She’s definitely my saving grace most days. Getting another puppy/friend for her AND I is still a pretty big consideration for the spring of 2010. She is lonely I think, big time.

- It’s interesting how time can change people. For some people, it seems to cause really good, positive changes….I am not convinced I’m one of those people yet.

- yawn….more tomorrow. Or sometime soon….I am pretty non committal these days.