Weekend Warriors, New Friends and A Happily Blissfull Tree Fruit

Purrrrrrr. Happy sigh. I am a happy tree fruit today.

A physically exhausted tree fruit, but a happily blissful tree fruit nonetheless.

I spent my weekend hugging some of my favorite people ever, making great new friends and playing volley ball in the pool at 1 AM at a rockin' Halloween party. I can't wait for those pictures. Crystal looked smokin' hot, Heather and Mark cracked me up with their creativity and Dane makes the best fuzzy dice I've ever seen. Good times.

The weekend left me feeling loved and knowing that those special relationships in life transcend location, time and life experiences. Crystal also said something that got me thinking. "No regrets Sarah, no regrets." It was in reference to a rather giggly matter, but the general concept resonated with me. Some mistakes have been made, on my part and on the part of others. Holding regret in my heart, lamenting my choices and putting energy into something I cannot change is an exercise in futility. I thought about this coming from someone who I know has experienced the kind of pain that no one should, and knew that it was the truth. That those challenges in life that bring us pain, that thwart our efforts toward progress and boggle the mind are the same challenges that are already in the past by the time we are able to fully realize the complexities of said challenges. All I can do now is try to live it right and heal along with my son. Luckily, a select core few have stuck around through a lot of growing pains. I am truly blessed in that regard.

I also was able to finally piece together the reality that I've essentially been in shock these past few months and am just now beginning to feel the feelings. It makes perfect sense as the summer has just been a roller coaster of events and results of those events, washing over me in huge waves. How else can I begin to heal and feel my feelings when I can't even catch my breathe? Finally, those first tentative gulps of air are beginning.

The weekend brought much pleasure and fun, along with some much needed clarity that sometimes can only come from the people who know you best and love you the most.

Yay weekends with friends from Seattle! Cartman says Kiiiiick ass! Oh yes and Dane, ManBearPig will be haunting you for many episodes to come. May the force be wtih you.