Baby Birdies

There are baby birdies flitting about every near my work, it's very sweet. Prancing about, following their momma birdies....searching for whatever little nitpicky piece of something they might find. They made me smile today, that's always a bonus yes?

Has anyone watched "Mind Of Mencia" on Comedy Central? Goodness is that some raunchy humor, but danget if it isn't some funny stuff still. Laughing at American culture and how ridiculously racist and contradictive we are is pretty hard to ignore, if I was a comedian I'd probably pick that stuff to mock as well...it's just to open for fodder not to. It's on after Cobert so we sort of bumped into on accident, C and I were both just stared at the television and then burst into ruckus laughter. Quite funny. Then South Park came on which means I have to go to bed because I am getting old and need to be sleeping by 10:30 or 11 these days or I am essentially worthless.

I'm sorta grumpy, hormonal mostly...too much to do and not enough energy at the moment. I also have the worst case of cramps on recent record, so I'm trying to grin and bear but mostly I feel like getting violent toward those in my way (which is every one today of course, because every one is bothersome to me at the moment) or running home to cry and cuddle my dog. All that unconditional love, tail wagging and face licking is sort of hard not to look forward to. Last night we went to bed before Chance did and she spent a good portion of our in-between sleep/awake time taking up the entire bed until she was comfortable. Of course I patiently waited for her to get to sleep before I could myself get situated, I don't mind. She is my baby, I just laugh at her...turning circles, this little lump moving around under the covers sniffing my feet and popping up in random spots for air.

Work is fine, life is over all fine...Spring is on it's way and this rebirth brings a thrill to my life, I enjoy it every year...but the change of seasons bring a certain moodiness my direction. I generally ignore it, but it is a real thing for me so I sort of have to go through the motions of what ever emotion it is that gets me going when the seasons change. Fall is especially difficult for me, but Spring brings so much excitement to me that I think I get a little overly anxious.

I've got to get my big bloated butt moving to pick up Max, make a quick dinner and head to Georgia's, then we have to get home and go pick up his hardware for his next shop project. Max's schedule will be the focus of my attention besides work for several months, unit July or so. It's great stuff for him, albeit totally demanding for everyone involved, it's still forward motion and that's really good. Luckily, I've finally learned how to really say no to people...I say this b/c there have been many social aspects of life that are essentially on hold for both Chance and I and while this means that many of our friends are feeling a little put out because we can't hang out as much or watch their baby or have dinner parties, that's pretty much ok with us. One thing I know for certain in life is that when you don't do what's right for you, you loose you...you loose focus and you loose direction. Max, our home and my family are my direction and affirming this both in this blogg, but also pretty consistently with others has been really good for me. I certainly am learning allot about who's supportive and understanding of this and who is not.

Peace ya'll, love
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