Sorry (you know who you are *giggle*) for not blogging in a while, over a week now I guess. Mostly it's been because I've been feeling decent enough to be doing things that allow me to get off the couch for a few hours at a time. Cleaned house, cooked a bunch of food (most of which I cannnot eat), walked the doggeh's, read some books and Facebook-ed. Facebooked? Is this like...a verb now? Jeesh, my generation is interested isn't it?
All in all, I'd say this experience was almost exactly what I expected and I am thankfull it has gone off without a hitch. There were bad days, but there were not so bad days to. It was really pretty tolerable overall. My follow up appointment went stellarly, Dr. Tonsils says everything is healing up normally and to expect some discomfort for some time on the left side because apparently that tonsil was deeply rooted into the tonsil bed and badly infected. He said they were some of the worst he's seen and that I can probably expect to be feeling about 100x better in the coming weeks and months as I heal up. YAY ME!
A few noteable lingering effects:
- Food. It's all to salty, sweet, spicy, crunchy, scratchy, dry, hot or cold. My taste buds haven't full recovered, not sure what's up with that, but apparently this is normal. I can tell you that it hasn't done wonders for my apetite. I've lost about 10 lbs and at this rate, may continue to lose or maybe at least not gain it back because food just isn't all that appealing, which honestly, is a bit of a drag.
- Energy. Some, not as much as I'd like. I have days where I'm totally beat still, and others where I have enough to be productive. I'm anxious about getting back to work, but not looking forward to the bulky inbox I am anticipating. I've gotten pretty lazy in the last few weeks, I'm sure it'll take me a few to get back on the bus and my sleep schedule is 7 different kinds of jacked up, so that should make for an interesting first week back at work.
- My voice. I am still sounding pretty froggy and I found myself singing in the car and I sound FUNKEH and it still requires a certain amount of effort. Dave says he can't quit nail it, but something about the tone and pitch seems to have changed. I am unsure as to whether this is permanent or not, I forgot to ask Dr. Tonsils and it does make sense that I sound different. Besides the obvious, I sometime find myself kind of babying my throat.
Other than this, there is no pain, it's just kind of annoying some times and perpetually feels dry. I drink so much water, or that's the other thing....my tap water suddenly takes extremely unpleasant. Like chlorine and something else gross, nothing like drinking a little swimming pool water to liven up the day huh? So, it's been bottled water and Gatorade, which I've suddenly taken quite a liking to and could become a very expensive habit.
This weekend we have Halloween festivities to attend, parties and I'm hoping to go to the King Tut exhibit at the musuem. We'll see how much energy I end up with.
FYI: Bella is wagging her tail in her sleep, little paws a twitching and "hrph roo roo hrph" - this tail wag is known as the "Happy Tail" in our house as Bella and Bailey do it exactly the same and it's beyond affirming to see that little tail curl up when I come home or when we are playing.
On the subject of Pugs, I received THE most charming book from my most wonderfully charming GramE. "Letters to a Young Pug" - I instantly sat down and read it and laughed and laughed. I just love it, it captures much of the Pug attitude and the pictures are great and of course, there is some wisdom to be received as a result.
Max and I spoke last night for some time, he's moved into his new place already! I sent him a huge box full of towels and blankets and what nots, cost me a small fortune in shipping but since I cannot be close to him physically, I must give to him what I can from afar. I miss him so much, sometimes it's painful. The seperation of child from mother is not something I've yet been able to describe in words or even clearly piece together in thought. His room-mate sounds nice, but all the bills are in Max's name (whoa huh?) and he's all Mister Big Stuff now, responsible and capable. He told me last night how much it sucks to have all these bills and I shared with him my thoughts on the perception of freedoms we have of adults when we are young, but it comes as a hefty surprise when we realize that those perceived freedoms come with a cost. Responsibilities are exhuasting for some of us, not so much for others, it's all in how you look at AND how much you take on. I.e...why you won't see me buying a house, getting married or taking on another fur baby any time soon. I'm on the "Keep It Simple Stupid" plan. Maximus, I suspect, will be learning all that in due time but I can tell that for now, he's on his own path with much gusto and I can also tell that he misses his momma to.
I will miss the puggies next week when I go back to work. A lot. We've spent a ton of time snuggling on the couch, long naps and movies. I am worried that they will miss me and be lonely. I see me driving home at lunch time for a while until everyone reacclimates.
I am thinking of going back to therapy, I need some help navigating some of the feelings I'm having about my relatinoship or...lack thereof, with the parental unit. Sometimes I get really angry, sometimes I feel nothing but forgiveness and empathy. All the time, I wish things weren't so complicated and I, for one, am putting a stop to my role in that complexity. There are a lot of people in my life who seem to love me just the way that I am and want to engage in a relationship with me that is consistently free of drama. Of course, this makes me sad, but I can honestly say that I feel a sense of freedom in letting go as well.
Kristen and Dave took mighty good care of me through all this. I am grateful for them and am learning a lot about loving someone who isn't perfect, but may just be perfect for me. Kristen is perfect though, she's the bestest friend a girl could ever have :D
Well, Dave should be home soon. I'm trying to muster up the energy to do something this evening, but right now...it's looking like another night on the couch :D Which is fine by me. I have to get out this weekend though and enjoy this gorgeous fall we are having. Plus, I can't wait to see my friends. I've been grounded for weeks and that's pretty hard for this Snuggle Bug, which btw...is what I'm going to be for a Halloween :D
Love to you all
S
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