I feel better today, considerabley better! Now, I know what you are all thinking. "That's great Sarah, but don't get ahead of yourself!" I know, I know. I'm heading my internal voice that is saying the same thing along with "Sarah, remember what happened LAST time you felt "better" and you wayyy over did it and payed for it for at least 2 days?" Yes, that voice is loud and powerful and I learned that lesson already.
So that said, I am keeping it low key today in spite of wanting to do a whole lot more than I already have, which is:
- Emptied the dishwasher.
- Made the bed.
- 2 loads of laundry.
- A trip to the gas station so me and my car could get out for a bit.
Actually, looking at that listis making that little voice tired so I'd probably better stop while I'm ahead.
The awesome news is that today, not only am I not in constant pain (only when I swallow and the ears are really stinging when I do that, ouch) but I am lengthening the time between meds doses. Still no appetite, no voice (unless you count Kermit The Frog voice) and since swallowing is still a chore, it does take effort. Oh and my ears are very sensetive to loud noises right now. But I tell you, this is the best I've felt in a while, even pre-surgery. Perhaps I have a glimpse of how I'm going to feel after this is all said and done? I'm pretty excited about that, I tell you! I keep thinking things like:
- Will I have more physical energy since I am not constantly fighting some kind of crud?
- Will I have more emotional energy since I am not constantly fighting some kind of crud and have more physical energy and therefore may feel like being a whole lot more active?
- Will I take this opportunity for what it is? An big shinning neon sign pointing to making some changes? Mostly about health, which as all know, is related to mental health.
I am excited!
Wish me luck, looks like I'm at the start of an upswing :)
WOOT
XO
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