08/15/2005 Weekend Reflections

I ended up having a wonderful weekend, in spite of my reluctance about not having any 'down' time so to speak. I hardly feel I can justify a complaint about not having enough time with the boys, at home or to myself when I consider the life events of those all around me. A large majority of my immediate circle are probably running on empty at this point as it is and most of them are just getting started! Course, I certainly have my own very welcome life changes to contend with, but I'm finding it less challenging and more rewarding as my control freak nature subsides and take the time to be introspective about behaviors, ideals and ego's in the process. A time of great change for us all.

Friday night we went to C's mom, had pizza, wine and ping pong. I really adore her, she's so sweet and nurturing. Very much the maternal unit. We all adore her, she's enjoyable to spend time with. She will play with Max more than any adult I know (except C when it comes to the whole video game aspect of 'play') and seems to genuinely enjoy him. C and I have this theory, when one gets older they have more capacity to truly appreciate children thus reminding us (primarily me) to also reflect on that appreciate and consider it's power in terms of the Little Man.

Saturday we all got up early and were quite productive. Spent the day shopping mostly, but for fun stuff. Bought two Vegetarian cook books for sooooper low prices, we were all happy about that. Max got some new comic books, I got a new fun stuff or me (clothes/jewelry/candles) and we all spent too much money but had lots of fun. Our refrigerator is now packed with lots of green, red, yellow wholesome goodness. I love it! C is an amazing cook, I've never met a dude that could cook so well. I'd like to blame him for the extra lbs., but can't really do so honestly, though it IS part of it. We eat A LOT of food, but it is all very healthy and I love the fact that C will explore a Vegetarian life style, another check on the 'Why I Love C' list.

Saturday night was Crys's going away party. C hung out with Little Man and drove me to and fro the festivities in order to avoid a ticket and I cut it loose with the girls. There was bowling, drinks, hanging out in the infamous 'Highlands Ranch Geeerageee' and time with Crys & Rhi that was sorely needed by all of us. As we were all sitting at dinner, I looked around and realized there were 3 things I would miss most as Crystal & Dane embark on their new lives together, Crystal, Dane and the diverse elements included in our fun together. I will not miss the guys in that group who have become increasingly creepy and uncomfortable to even be around, I guess my tolerance for certain sorts of behavior isn't quite as readily available as it once was. Not out of judgment, more out of a general respect for myself and those around me and my own choices. I look forward to a new dawning in the lives of my much beloved friends, our sweet Rhi is also considering a gigantic move I know she's holding off on any final decisions and moving forward with such things until Crys and Dane are safely in WA. I applaud her unselfish behavior in being available to Crys for any assistance she may need as the days go by.

Hats off to our sweet Sam who kindly and patiently cared for us silly girls as he always does, I sense a very real and genuine friendship between him, Rhi and Crys. I like it, friendships like that are empowering and affirming, however brief or brilliant they may be.

Sunday morning C came to my rescue and took me home to a wonderful meal, some snugglies and I spent the majority of the day on the couch with him and the Little Man. I am a spoiled rotten little brat and I am loving every minute of it. I'm not sure what drives him to be so gentle, patient, kind and loving toward me but he does so without question or hesitation. Not to just me either, all those in his life. His family, myself and my child, his dear friends....some day I will find a way to articulate my thoughts more effectively, until then I just say 'Thank You' alot and try to love him the best that I can, which sometimes is conveyed in strange and probably irritating ways, but he accepts my quirkiness too, so I am learning not to apologize for being a freak cuz some people love the Freak That Is Me:)