Being that I am this incredibly fortunate individual and have an inordinate amount of autonomous beings whom I share a closeness with, I cannot help but wonder at the personal agenda's I see being fought for within my circles. Understand, that I do not necessarily connotate the term "personal agenda" with a negative tone, though it is not a stretch to embody that concept within the confines of an adverse political, psychological and sociological environment. Admittedly, I too sometimes use the term "personal agenda" to be condescending, dictating and self-righteous of another. Even though consciously that may not be my intent. I am but an infantile human being and know that I am guilty of that which I am arguing against, and this, by defualt, makes me hypocritical.
However, when I analyze more thoroughly and am cognizant of my reactions, "personal agenda" describes each individuals passion and basis for that passion within the Universal Experience. In whatever form that may come to be, each of us have a passion in which we strongly agree or disagree. Is it not our responsibility, to investigate and exhaust every aspect of another's perspective? To take it in and absorb, absorb every aspect of their reality? The reality of their hearts and the very life force of their own balance? Into our own hearts? By taking it in, we create experience? Even if the experience permeates through another? Biologically or otherwise? I think so!
But, it seems to me that so many get caught up in defense mechanisms and forced belief systems that possibly they are unable to be truly analytical and logical? And what of unifying humaneness and emotion in their responses to said personal agenda's? Thus seemingly completely and utterly closed to the beauty that is the very scope of another's passion?
I know that while I would like to think I am an open individual, I have my own breaking point. My own fine line, in which I become defensive, feel attacked. Regardless of another's intention. I know it exists within my being. Again, hypocrisy. I struggle with it, I know I am guilty and I am not sure how to accept it, becuz it truly goes against everything I am passionate about. My belief system. My personal agenda.
In S's ideal world there would be no hypocricy, complete openness to another's passion as well as her own passions (and faults?) without impending guilt. A world in which we would embrace each another, give and recieve selflessly and with an integrity. I speak often about integrity, not something I am sure I have any sort of right to discuss with another. Who am I to speak of integrity with all that I have done unto this planet? To my loved ones? To myself? But it is something written on my heart. That we are to live, with integrity, amongst one another. Not just to co-habitate, but to embrace. Not just to idly pass by, but to observe and integrate.
And with integrity, comes the respect of anothers fight? The fight of a womens right to choose? The fight of a child's right not to be abused? The fight to live without global violence? The fight to live without governmental benevolance? The fight to hear the sounds of our universe? The fight of a father to participate? The fight of a mother who has mourned? The fight of a siser who is lost? The fight of a brother baring the burden? The fight of our earth and all of it's cosmos? The fight of one to live their own unique purpose? The fight to love whom we are born to love? The fight to give and receive? The fight to speak? The fight to be heard? The fight to live. To live!
Within the fight, within the battle, within the struggle...we learn. We collectively obtain knowledge, experience. We contribute and embrace through personal agenda's. We acknowledge the plight of another and accordinlgy personify that plight? Contribute to the generous Universal Experience. Familiarizing Universal Law with the human condition so that it may in return, familiarize us. With each other. With love. With tolerance. With diversity. With magnanimous self-awareness! How glorious!!!!
And all the while - it may be dark. Witnessing the agenda of another may be bewildering and bring coldness to our very core. We hold brashness in our own hearts, out of rage and frustration and simple raw human emotion. It is a clash of wills. We encounter that in which we disagree and we choose our passion, our passion to fight with further dilligance. However painful it might be for us an individual level, we must maintain hope and resolve. We must stand up - stand up for our own personal agenda's and of those for whom which we show support. We must give and recieve, hear and embrace love selflessly, becuz even in the face of carelessness, we must contribue to Universal Experience. And with this, we humbly become. We become Universal.
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