Pain

Another round of dental drama, appointment today 4:30 PM.  Same tooth, re-infected, golf ball forming on my face.  We’ll see what they say this afternoon, but I have a hunch that I’m going to lose it.  Which at this point, I am ok with.  It’s been 3 solid months of discomfort, office visits and expenses and way to  many antibiotics and pain medication.  I’m about over it, but need to remain objective about the next potential outcomes rather than let my pain dictate the outcome.  All I know is that most, if not all, of the options (except extraction) are quite pricey and mean yet more pain.

Pain is a funny thing.  I used to be so terrified of it.  Now, I guess I am less so.  Age and experience I suppose, has taught me that the fear of the pain is typically worse than the actual pain itself.  I really don’t need another thing pressing my anxiety buttons, so I’ll just deal with it when it comes rather than getting all worked up over it.  I’ve also found that medical related pain is often managed very effectively by caregivers.  They do not wish to see you in pain, so that helps a lot.  Just knowing that helps tremendously.  Even if I stay away from the pain medication or take it in very small doses, at least I know it’s there and people care. 

I am having more anxiety about missing work due to further appointments, not to mention the number of events coming in the coming weeks.  I cannot afford any real “down” time in the coming weeks, so hopefully my dentist will get that and work with me on times.  We’ll see what he says, I’m not convinced that I even like him all that much.  He has this sort of holier than thou attitude, like I’m a nuisance to him.  Once I get all this fixed, I’ll be looking for another dentist.  Unfortunately, I am stuck where I am due to insurance for the remainder of this treatment.  After that, I am free to go elsewhere and will probably do so.

Now, I just need to get through the day on ibuprofen alone and pray they can get this resolved sooner rather than later.

Happy Tuesday Friends, let’s do this!

BUYAAAAH

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