Getting There....

A few days ago, I noticed I have a very clear and defined wrinkle on the corner of my eye. This isn't like a laugh line, with a laugh like mine it's hard NOT to have laugh lines. No, this is definitely a wrinkle that came with age, pure and simple. Vain as it may be, I keep examining it and laughing at myself over it. At first, I was kind of irritated at it. Like, how dare you show up on my face already...I'm only 28. Jeesh. And then I laughed even harder at myself for being irritated with it in the first place, when did I get so hung up on physical flaws? I thought I let go of that external bullshit a long time ago? Silly girl.

I know now that my initial reaction to this external notification of my age took me by surprise because I have yet to even begin to feel like an "adult" = "a grown up" = "mature"...let alone have it written all over my face. I still color in coloring books, how can I have a wrinkle?

Then I had this fabulous conversation with a truly exceptional individual on the topic of "experience" and how intrinsic knowledge comes with experience and experiencing life takes physical time. This also included biological experience and how mothers and fathers and their mother and fathers pass down their "experiences" to us in some manner or another, good or bad, we have thousands of years of evolution written on our hearts and minds and we in turn pass it on. Verbally, physically, mentally, socially...conscious or not - every day we are all sharing a knowledge with each other of our own direct experiences and the experiences past down to us from others.

After some thought, the wrinkle became a sign, a badge of honor. It is a sign of change, it is my physical body attempting to catch up with my mental/emotional/spiritual one. I don't feel like an "adult" or "mature" because no doubt there is an infinite amount of information and experience available and non of us are really "grown" - we are all but infants in that context. How can I feel all growed-up when that is an impossibility in one life time?

So me and my wrinkle are going to go color and smile and share secret giggles. Neener neener boo boo ;-P