Foggy Fridays

Fog isn't something you see a lot in Denver, especially not this thick. It's very pretty, but fog does have ominous undertones to me for some reason. Probably all those B horror flicks from my youth. The Fog, dun dun dun!!!!!! I always rather enjoyed it in San Francisco though, it has a smell. Like salty ocean water and fresh rain. I miss San Francisco sometimes, the vibrancy of the living there and the openness of the culture. I miss living in the city sometimes, the energies that exist with tens of thousands of people packed into square miles. I also miss the water, it feels like to long since I saw it last.

I am a bit foggy myself today, so it is fitting weather outside for my mood. Not melancholy in any way, just sort of out of it. I think I am pulling out of this sinus thing, but this past week feels like a blur of domestic existence, work, driving in my car and floating in water. The highlight of my week was definitely seeing Mary yesterday. I was able to get go to her earlier than we'd planned, so it was nice to steal her for a whole afternoon. I could tell she was tired, so I appreciate she stuck it out and gave me some food for thought.

This week we also got Mj registered for High School (if anyone had any doubt that he is in fact a full fledged teenager, let that doubt now cease) and he picked some great electives. I am excited for him, High School will be a lot of fun for him I think. I also finalized the child support order and Sean should receive notification within the next few weeks. I am a bit anxious about it, but I am grateful that it is now in motion. It would be great, if by some miraculous stage of events, we can all find a way to make this thing work so that ultimately it benefits Max and harms no one else. Either that, or that Sean would just go away until Max is older and let us live our lives without this constant distraction Max experiences over his Dad. That's probably not very nice and could be interpreted in many ways....but the impact Max's father has had on him in recent years has not been a good one, it's been extremely confusing for Max and he's still working desperately to figure out what this is all about. Now it is in the hands of the courts though and there is some relief for Max and I both in this.

This weekend I am going to have to work a bit to make up some time for being sick, go to my friends Bday party Sat night and hopefully just get caught up on some rest. I have all these plans, but my body may have other plans in mind. It's hard to say, we'll play it by ear.

C got his new laptop, let me just say that Mac's rock and I want one. Very lovely little pieces of wires and bits they are, I have a strange love affair with technology and all of its hardware. Sometimes I loathe it and feel inspired to completely break away entirely from the depths of dependence on it which engulfs my life. Other times, I could totally loose myself in all of it and get totally wired in. It becomes like a drug, technology and the internet. You become dependant on it and trust me, it is dependant on us The concept of technology as it's own live entity is real to me b/c I can see the inner workings of the logic behind it all and if you think of the cumulative effort by hundreds of thousands of programmers, IT professionals, web designers and administrators and so on to create their own little piece of the mega-pie, you are looking at a large collective thought process all moving in one forward motion. As a whole, a unit, with a similar intent. Then consider the millions of earthlings across the planet who are plugged into all of this information and have a regular user experience, that daily interaction with this information and technical process compounds the collective energy we are all putting into this technology. It's pretty massive.

eh eh, back to my programming....my precious.