Tuesday Is Tuesday

1) I am, it seems, on the sh*t list of the oh so venerated Goddess of Technology today.
I am s sorry dear one for any way in which I may have offended thee, I repent, I repent!

2) Would you rather do the right thing for the wrong reason - or - the wrong thing for the right reason?
My first reaction was "wrong thing, right reason" as in the end justify the means...and then I realized that one could argue basically the same logic for "right reason, wrong thing" and THEN it occurred to me that this one of those hypothetical questions designed to travel in loops and thus...an ethical/moral/logical nightmare..(logical fallacy if you CM)

3) Working in that hell-hole was like being in the most horribly abusive relationship and I've escaped, once again. YAY ME!
Every day I wake up and don't have to go to TNT Sales feels like a rebirth. Every day that I don't feel opressed, unappreciated, abused and disrespected my heart swells larger and eyes gleam brighter. My big toothy smile has made an appearance more in the past 2.5 weeks than it has in years, life feels better and the LACK of stress from 40 hours a week has allowed me to reiterate the positivity in my life in all directions.

4) If the people in my life get any more wonderful, I might burst into a million bubbles.
I don't know where they came from or why exactly they are here, but good gracious am I a lucky damn women.

5) Rumble young man, rumble.
What might happen if the world focused a mere percentage of it's collective energy on creating global change? What might happened if we started with ourselves first? What do I do with "it"? How do "I" start today?

As If...

As if I didn't already have an inordinate amount of rage and frustration with the man that was somehow re-elected as the president of our country and uses words like evil-doer (ok Batman) and strategery (sigh), I am once again disgusted at the behavior of an individual who clearly holds no conscience or even one ounce of integrity.

How DARE he use the Schiavo case as a diversion, a freaking DIVERSION from the realities of our current political environment. How DARE he purposefully stick his damn nose in the business of this poor family who have already been through enough? Publically! AND THEN...endorses legislation that he's not done much more than blink his big blank eyes at in the past, all just so he can jump on the "Save Terri" band-wagon and toot toot his greedy, conservative, ridiculously wealthy, selfish, republican horn?

How could Mr. Schiavo possibly fight the President of the United States for cripes sake, I mean the guy doesn't even have a chance and even worse you've got a primarily Republican House which would dare not disagree with such a man as George W. Bush. What does this mean? If this can happen now; the man responsible for running this country can step directly into the life of one family and force the government to make decisions for said family, what's next? I'm sorry but this makes me nervous. What about all this Baseball crap? Or the justification of theft from our Social Security system to supplement the 150 Billion dollars we've spent already to hunt down Bin Laden and find WMD???

I've heard this statistic several times now, 63% of all the people who voted for GWB during this last election actually THOUGHT we found WMD in Iraq? Seriously, I'm not joking. I hate throwing out statistics cuz most of them seem fishy to me, but either way...this number concerns me. Truly. Because if it IS true, then no one is paying attention!!! NO ONE IS PAYING ATTENTION! Many things have unnerved me about our current political world and I've been angry and outraged just like everyone else...but this is totally ridiculous. Tears burn my eyes, it is so blatantly obvious what is going on, I mean BLATANT and your certainly not going to turn on NBC tonight and hear about it. It just doesn't feel right, this isn't how it's supposed to be.

And another day passes where Mr. Schiavo is being forced to continue to relive the same fight over and over and over while GW uses this to his own personal advantage and all the while that women's dignity is being compromised by others.

A new low, even for GWB.

Release The Beast

Heart beating too hard
Blood boiling too hot
Stomach tied too tight
Chest fighting just to breathe
Body begging to release this beast

Cold roar of a tempers flaring and fists flailing
Arduous rage of ridicule and self-appointed righteousness
Stinging bite of bold disrespect and disregard
Offensive odor of assumptions and judgments
Spirit screaming to release this beast

Those who bruised my skin and attempted to crush my power
Those that stole my virtue without an ounce of remorse
Those barking unrealistic demands and labeled me difficult
Those with condescending comments about my choices
Those whom claimed friendship only to gossip behind my back

Shame on you
I choose to release this beast

Because my bruises have healed and I am empowered
Because my worth is not founded on what others took
Because my loved ones welcome the challenge of my enthusiasm
Because my choices are my choices and I have not sinned
Because my love for others is not hindered by pettiness

Less my shame
I choose to release this beast