Thursday, February 24, 2005

Butt-crack....

Amazing how one comment can really get your contemplative juices flowing.

A simple and rather humorous (but damn honest) comment about my rear end has got my mind spinning with the concept of how we perceive each other. How do the events, actions, comments, interactions, etc...form our perceptions of one another? Is ones first impression bound to follow one throughout the duration of an interaction or relationship? Are things like a blemish or 5 O'Clock shadow or shrill laughter or some other sort of physical dynamic THAT imperative in how we judge (eek - there's that word again) one another?

I shudder at the thought that my butt-crack will be the only thing that stands out about me to this person. That some cartoon-like imagery will arise in his mind when he thinks about a certain cheeky-smiling women with clearly more going on than some ass-cleavage. No matter how lovely said ass might be...adorned by my favorite Butterfly and what not...I guess I just always thought this was not the sort of thing one might comment on in reference to how one might "remember" another person...or "think" of another.

I do not take this sort of thing personal, often when individuals make gestures of this sort...the intent is not negative or even conscious and usually has more to do with something within themselves rather than the person they may projecting said comment on. It is more of an example to me, we run into this sort of thing every day after all, constant messages about others perceptions of us...what we should be maybe more than what we are? When in all reality, who we are already are constantly morphing and that very process of morphing is gorgeous. I think it is also that I am taken back about how much this simple little comment has prompted my own internal thoughts about human interactions, judgments, perceptions, etc. AND...maybe I am a little unnerved that apparently, we still haven't moved past the point of thinking of others in such ridiculous physical terms.

Is there not beauty in all of us? Is it THAT hard to focus on the eclectic, positive and wonderful gifts each of us has to offer each other? I mean how hard is that? And if we MUST be so focused (ugh) on the CONCEPT of external beauty....well what is the harm in accepting everyone's unique beauty in that sense as well? Does it hurt anyone?Sigh.

One mans plumbers butt is another mans beautiful ass cleavage if you ask me.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

Fill In The ________________

Fill In The_________
• I am not: As afraid as I once was.
• I hurt: Because I simply do not understand.
• I love: The gift that is this life.
• I hate: I have strong dislike but feel the concept of true hate is completely and totally destructive.
• I fear: Much less than I once did.
• I hope: Much more than I once did.
• I hear: The voices of our elders.
• I crave: The Ocean & Sunlight.
• I regret: MJ's younger years.
• I cry: Easily and often.
• I care: Sometimes until it is painful.
• I always: Try to embrace a Universal Perspective.
• I long to: Do, give, be...more.
• I feel alone: All of the time and none of the time.
• I listen: To the songs of our hearts.
• I hide: When I am needy, confused, frustrated or overwhelmed.
• I drive: Because it is pretty damn fun.
• I sing: Constantly.
• I dance: As much as possible, I like to wiggle:)
• I write: Every day.
• I breathe: Conscious breathe.
• I play: In every possible way, feverishly.
• I miss: Carin, my father, my innocence.
• I feel: Everything.
• I know: That I am constantly growing.
• I say: I love you.
• I search: For further understanding, knowledge and information.
• I learn: Every single moment.
• I succeed: When I am supported, nurtured and empowered.
• I fail: When I feel suppressed, oppressed, forced.
• I dream: Intensely.
• I sleep: In strange patterns.
• I wonder: At everything.
• I want: To learn more.
• I worry: About our children, our Earth, our lack of tolerance.
• I have: Everything I could possibly need.
• I give: Freely of myself.
• I fight: For that which I feel strongly about.
• I wait: For a reason to be silly, I usually don't wait too long.
• I need: More patience and forgiveness for myself.
• I am: A strong, worthy, beautiful, intuitive, loving, generous, dynamic female.
• I think: Integrity is an amazing force.
• I can't help the fact that: I have made mistakes in the past that have affected others.
• I stay: As grounded as possible.
• I find: That I am constantly reminded of how fortunate I am.